Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Bad Boy

Long before I was diagnosed with type II diabetes, I would have spells about once a year where I would be "mad at the whole world". It would build to a point that I could not stand myself. I would start taking a multi-vitamin and in a week or so realize my attitude had changed.

I now believe this was really early signs of diabetes. Now when my sugar gets a little high, I get depressed and mad at the world.

After being diagnosed with diabetes, I lost about 75 lbs. in 12 weeks, started riding a bicycle 45 to 70 miles a week. My sugar would be in the upper 70's in the morning and I felt better than I had in years (except for the fact that I no strength at 175 lbs).

Over the next year or so I let my weight ease up to 185 lbs., my sugar around 95, and my blood pressure about 110/70 and I gained my strength back. I would check it every day and it was always the same.

Slowly I rode the bike less, didn't watch my diet as closely, and checked my sugar only occasionally. The weight started easing up but it stayed below 200 lbs.

Fast forward and I haven't ridden my bike in two years, eat anything I want, weight on the wrong side of 225 lbs, and for the last month my depression and anger have returned. My blood sugar is too high @125 and something has to be done.

The world is not a pretty place when seen thru my miserable eyes. Blogger has been giving me fits, but the real truth is for the last month I have not had anything "good" to say about my life or the world.

3 comments:

Annie said...

Ones view of the world is coming right out of ones own body so it stands to reason that if the body is off-kilter then the view might be too. I'd never heard though of this symptom related to diabetes. It's your warning cry!

Lilli & Nevada said...

I think you know what you have to do to get back in a even keel with your life. So preaching to you about getting back to doing what you know is good for you won't help much. But i sure would hate to think i won't be seeing any neat posts from you again, so go take care of yourself like you know you should.
Ok i said i wasn't going to preach didn't is say that?

Linda said...

I don’t have diabetes, but also have quit exercising. The weight slipped up 20 pounds. Blood pressure and cholesterol reacted accordingly. Let’s make it a goal to loose ten pounds by Valentines day--hopefully not just Christmas candy weight!

 

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